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Love is when you look into someone's eyes and see their heart.

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December 14th, 2004 @ 7:19pm]
[ mood | artistic ]



mucho luv!

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December 13th, 2004 @ 4:00pm]

Im in drama class right now waiting to go on...blah..talking about anal stuff..eww

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December 10th, 2004 @ 8:40am]





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December 8th, 2004 @ 11:40am]
[ mood | amused ]

Lemme see..I love how people jump to conclusions before they even know what the fuck they are talking about...Kat Kat Kat...shut it.STDS?..yea ok buddie..not gonna happen.

BESIDES that..I am having a pretty good day..Sick tho..don't really care..im always sick. I thought I was getting braces today..but imnot..GO ME!.lol..Im not getting them till after the first of the year..ehh..I suck.

Right now im in good mood.I found 1 joint in the back of my closet in the little box-a-ma-bob I have had for a wile.I don't even remember rolling it.

I don't think he really loves me.

But thats nothing new..

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December 7th, 2004 @ 11:11am]
[ mood | aggravated ]








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December 7th, 2004 @ 10:40am]
[ mood | horny ]

hahaha...I watched Sarahs Llama song! It was funny..I like llamas..I want to buy one when I grow up!

So yea..I got suspended yesterday with John Quaterroni?...IDk how to spell his last name right and Mike Upshaw. I was upstairs where all the big chairs were by nyself thinking about me and Randy so i really wasnt in a good mood.John and Mike were upstairs looking for Mikes wallet and they saw me sitting down and they came over to see what was wrong and they got it out of me I told them and Rnady inside the boys bathroom at the time punched the wall and made the Clock and the picture on the outside shake and almost fall off. Then Mr.Prevost went in to get him and he got out and Miss.MAy went after Him and he ran..*smart one babe...still luv ya*Then Mrs.T.came over to us and told us that we had to go down to the commens this is how it went.

Her:You guys have to go to the Commens.


Her:Cuz you have to.

Me:we don't have .


Me:Cuz I am god and I make up the rules and i say we can stay....

Needless to say We all got in trouble for being upstairs and not listening to the teacher and we got kicked out of school for the rest of the day and today we can't go. Randy got suspended for punching the file cabinate  and not being good....thats normal tho. So now I am the phone with him talking about stuff..

My mum didnt ground me...surprised. She took the computer away from me...So I update when she is not home...So yea.

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December 4th, 2004 @ 4:46pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

Today me and my mum went ti shopping and I got a new pair of jeans and thats it. I only had 15 bucks so yea.

Talking to Austin and I said I was cold and he siad "Have Randy warm you up"..thenI was sad cuz he was at Nick's house putting SOcks on each others cocks.

Now we are talking about having sex with his sexxi elbow...

Kenneyboarder145: i have a boner lol on my elbow
Kenneyboarder145: jk
Hide The Panguin: lmao
Kenneyboarder145: lol
Hide The Panguin: I want to have sex with your elbow..
Hide The Panguin: lol
Kenneyboarder145: my elbows a pimp
Hide The Panguin: how many other girls want to have sex with your elbow?
Kenneyboarder145: just the crazy you
Hide The Panguin: why is it so crazy wanting to have sex with your elbow?
Kenneyboarder145: i duno lol

So thats what m life consist of wanting to have sex with his elbow..

So me and Austin are going to set up a date yo to have hot wild Elbow sex.. JUST KIDDING!!......I love you Randy!

So thats it..I ate Salad today to..Just thought you should know that!

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December 3rd, 2004 @ 8:51am]

<gt;Im tired..All I did last night was work out and drink coffee..

I woke up at 12:30 and called Sarah and After we got off the phone I could not sleep, so i watched ROTK and Resident Evil for the 8th time.

I tried going to sleep..no luck.

Now I am jolted on coffee and can't really  function right.

I need to sleep..but I don't think it is going to work..I have practice after school then I am going shopping with my mum and then I think im going to Randy's house or he is going over mine. IDK....



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December 2nd, 2004 @ 8:18am]
Yea...I am in Science right now looking up shit for diabetes.

My ear iches and I have a headache.

Mike is playing Rune Scape that boner.

I'm a lucky little beaver I am..



hardy har har...
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November 24th, 2004 @ 11:21am]
[ mood | stalked ]

Yesterday I went to Boston to go see macbeth...I fell asleep 3 times and woke up on either Nick arm or Joshs...I woke up in the middle of the play when he Macbeth said " I was born a women," and for the rest of they play I thought he was a Trans.

I love boston..I want to move there..But I am to poor.I want to visit that place as much as I can.When Nick Randy and I go get Sarah we are going to be sooo lost..mkk...this is the plan, but they never work so this is what I hope is going to happen.

We get out of school. go to the train station.Get on.Get to Boston around 3:00 3:30. Go to Logan.Pick up Sarah. Find someplace to hang out.Find a place to eat.Hang around for about 3 hours.Take train home.Bring Sarah to her house.Bring Sarah to my house.Drink lots of coffee.Don't sleep.Go to North Central.Sarah flirts with Scott.We laugh at him.

Then after that..idk. It is going to be a crazy week.hehehehe

Grr..My brother just showed.He is upstairs.I hope he stays there. Fucking looser.

Randy is coming over today! yay..I did'nt go to school today cuz of my back still. I fucking hate my body. It is soo broken.*that sounded really pathetic*..but it really is. My back is soooo fucked up.I can't skateboard.I can't snowboard.I can't do ANYTHING!!...I'm going to be the laziest person I know this Winter.Most of my friends are going snowboarding..I quit..I'm giving my two week notice!!

My lip gloss tastes like lemon meringue pie..yum.

I hate Tom..He must burn in hell.

I'm pissed that C . U . N . T is back.

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Blahahahgagagag!! [Wednesday

November 17th, 2004 @ 3:14pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

=========My eyes are burning..my neck feels like an axe is in it.People always drag me down.I hate how I see myself. I feel like im spinning on circles and im never going to stop. I have so much confusion and it kills me...I just want to kill everyone and get rid of them.

I'm in a closet and the door is locked from the outside.


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November 7th, 2004 @ 11:51am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

...So far I have had a pretty good day...

Got a phone call around 10:30 from the love of mia life *randy* and I talked to him for like an hour and a half...his mum got home and he had to go..He is going to call me bach later tho..:)...

Before Randy called I had woken up around 8...I slept with my window open just a crack..so it was nice and cool in my room..I thought noone was home so I opened my pack of splash and smoked the second one in the first row in the left side pack...always smoke that one first.I think I am in love with cloves now..I love the sweet taste they leave on your lips after smoking somthing that will kill me in about 15 years from now...Don't know if that makes sense..It is kinda like a guilty pleasure..idk..im strange..

I wanted to go see Saw this weekend..but I have no life and didnt go.

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November 5th, 2004 @ 6:22pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Im talking to Randy on the phone!

Mwah..I want to kiss him..

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November 3rd, 2004 @ 8:49pm]
Hide The Panguin:you may have a smoothie...but I have a....tootsie roll
Lord voldiemort: well at least what im drinking doesnt look like a roll of crap
Lord voldiemort: lmao.
Lord voldiemort: i win

I don't think i'll ever look at a tootsi roll the same way..
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November 3rd, 2004 @ 6:54pm]
We were talking about I scammed 41 bucks out of my mum so I could buy a grow your own shrooms kit..I told her that I was going to a Velvet Revolver concert...

raptor1005: she belived you?
Hide The Panguin: yea...lol
Hide The Panguin: it suprised me
raptor1005: i wouldent
Hide The Panguin: me either..
raptor1005: i mean really
raptor1005: who would go to a velevet revolver concert
Hide The Panguin:...
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October 28th, 2004 @ 1:07pm]
Im so fucking sick of you and your beautiful eyes...

Tomorrow may never come...
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October 26th, 2004 @ 2:26pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

I wish I could hate you as much as I hate myself..

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October 25th, 2004 @ 3:20pm]
We can tie her to the roof, like a dead deer...
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drunken lullabies [Thursday

October 14th, 2004 @ 3:35pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Blag..I had two Doc's appointment today..one at 9 in the morning and one at 1 30. The one at 9 was a pain in the ass..I had to hold certian positions for 3 minutes and not move..I did this for my back.The one at 130 was soo boring..I have a new shrink.Her name is Nancy..When she told me what her name was I thought of my friend Nancy..who is going to Boston..Im going to Boston..then I lost compleat tract on what she was talking about..Then she asked me if I had a boyfriend or a crush and anything..I wanted to be a smart ass and say that im a lesbian and I have a lover named Joe..BUT...saying that would prolly have me put back on medication and I really don't need that.So I said..No..i'm not really worried about a love life right now...I want to work on my school work so I can get into a good college..

For the next half hour I lied my ass off trying not to be out back on medication.I told her how I have tried out for the soccer team..and im on the year book commitie..blah blah blah...I told her abouthow I went to the sk8 park and fell..Then she said..."why are you trying to be somthing your not?...you dont know how to skate at all,..you should do somthing more your speed and do a school play."

That REALLY pissed me off..she had no idea how I am..I have know her what..for 30 mins? yea Right..Yea..I am in the play..*haha..yea I suck*.but still..She also said I should not do it because it is a "dangerous sport" and I could fuck up my back again...I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK.!!


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October 13th, 2004 @ 7:57pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

Today I went to Randy's house ang hung out for awile..I had to leave early tho..his mum was comming home early and he is grounded so..yea that was fun.I went to the park and Met Andrew and Austin there..No one was really there.So I did not want to walk thru Cleghorn by myself wile it was getting dark so I asked Andrew if his dad could give me a ride home..So he gave me a ride home..I havent ska8ted in a wile..I tried it..now I have a bruise on my ass the size of a donkey and now it hurts..

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